Start Over

6 Apr

Starting over.

I have been blogging 11 years. Can you believe that there have been blogs for that long? Well there has. I started back in 2000 with a Livejournal account (which btw, I still have and no you can’t know my name there). Live journal for me has always been the place that I was 100% honest with my posts. It is in essence where I learned how to share myself with the world. It is also the place that has gotten me through a divorce, a horrid break up, and a wedding!  I started on livejournal and then moved on to myspace and eventually (and begrudgingly) to facebook. The difference about all of these things than “blogging” is that you still get to lock down what you say, to filter who sees it etc.

I got a blogger account 4 years ago and began to publicly blog. It was hard for me to know where to draw the line and eventually although it still remains relatively read, it bored me to tears because I discovered that although I was honest in my blog, I was reserved.

So here comes middleofthebed, a place where I intend on being honest. Since I have a career and a family who currently loves me, for me to be honest and allow EVERYONE to read, I would have to be anonymous.

Anonymous blogging seems like it would be easy, the problem is, I am starting over. I don’t have any “friends” associated with this blog and really that sucks donkey shlong. I’ve gotten my first Twitter account @middleofthebed and I am finding it hard to break into the social circles. I am not quite sure where I fit there yet. ITS LIKE FRIGGING HIGH SCHOOL all over again for me! Socially awkward poor little ELL! Someone on twitter asked me how I was doing with the anon posting and after I got over the excitement that someone actually TALKED TO ME ON TWITTER, I thought honestly it has been no easier than posting on the other blog. In fact, because I am not ‘established’ out here, I am insecure.

I think that what comes of all this will be very interesting. I can’t wait to find out what this will morph into and how I will find my way and how honest I will be. I am working on a very open and very honest post to follow this one and I hope that you will take care with it, anonymous or not.

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6 Responses to “Start Over”

  1. Jordy April 6, 2011 at 5:08 PM #

    I’m with you on the whole anonymous posting thing. I try to be pretty secretive as far as where I work or where exactly I live. I try not to give out my last name, although people can find it if they tried. I blog for myself and for readers, and I have found it easy to post things and get by with not telling every detail of my life. I go to work 8-5 and come home. I write about the “home” portion more so than anything.

    It took me a couple years to finally start seeing “strangers” find my blog and connect with certain readers. 🙂

    • middleofthebed April 6, 2011 at 5:13 PM #

      Hi thanks for stopping by 🙂 I have another blog that is way more well established so I feel almost like a fish out of water. Its interesting and fun but at the same time it makes me insecure and antsy! lol I know I am so difficult!

  2. stevebetz April 6, 2011 at 5:41 PM #

    I was so unsophisticated when I started blogging that I kept my name as my domain name. I started on vox in 2006 and rolled over to WP when it was clear that ship was on the rocks. So oddly, I’ve been myself the whole time.

    Sometimes I wonder if that’s a good idea (as in, could I ever get a job again being so “out there”) — but I never give specifics about work and never post anything I would be ashamed of my mom reading. You know, if my mom was still alive, but you get the idea.

    • middleofthebed April 7, 2011 at 1:09 PM #

      There is something to be said to blogging like your mom will never read it though ha ha ha 😉

  3. stevebetz April 6, 2011 at 5:42 PM #

    Oh — and as for community, I think it’s the same as it ever was. Tag-search, leave comments, add some interesting-ish folks and hopefully some of them will stick!

    • middleofthebed April 7, 2011 at 1:18 PM #

      I was going to respond to this one with a long string of whining that mentioned not wanting to go through this all over but then I am sure you would remind me that I CHOSE to start over therefore invalidating above mentioned whine! ha!
      So putting me through this thought process cheered me up ha!
      Ell

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